Love Really Heals

When you are discourage or even angry what things make you calm down? Or what gives you the courage to do better next time? Does it really help? It was a fine day at the start. But when it was alredy the period for Reading, I was so discouraged of the results of the test. I really, really failed. I seemed to laugh at my score and smiled to persons I meet. But after the dismissal I went home with a sad face. In the house, I can't help but cry and my tears kept on falling. I regretted it. All I knew was that I have studied but those facts I read did not came out in the test. Actually, I haven't read in the book most of the items, but it was there. It was just in the fact that I focused on other details. Then, while crying I was to the intense of blaming myself that I have said indecent words which are not supposed to be spoken out. It was just because of my extreme anger and at the same time of the disappointment. The story did not end there, I was trying to forget about it because I have realized that it is my own fault and not of the other people and I cannot undo it anymore. So it lead me to read a book. Meanwhile, my mother commanded me to clean outside our house, but before that, I sat on the bench outside and reflected on myself and the things I have done. Then, I remembered that my mother told me to do something. So I followed it. I arranged the woods and compiled or placed it in one place so it would not look topsy turvy, instead it would look neat inspite of the renovation we are having. Later, I asked permission from my mother to go to the house of my aunt , and so I was permitted. When I arrived at my aunt's house, there my cousin wre bursting out with laughter. They were all laughing like a drain. So as their cousin, I joined them but all the funny jokes and stuffs they made and said did not help at all. But I was also laughing but in a "plastic mode". Later, I said that I would like to go home already because I am so sleepy. I felt sleepy because while watching a movie, I was not focusing on it but I was thinking about my grades in Reading. I was intensively serious about that happening. So I requested one of my cousins to go with me because I am afraid of the dark since it was already night and very dim. We passed by the house of the person whom I admire and I saw him.. He also saw me. We had a few seconds eye-to-eye moment. I felt the usual feeling of persons who had experienced this. This made me feel comfortable. I blushed from head to toes. But I did not let anyone notice it but still my cousin who was with me noticed it. Like any other person, she was really convincing me to tell her that I really admire that neighbor of ours. Let us just keep his name for privacy. So I ended up my day with earning some "KM-Kilig Moments." In return, I was happy as I slept. It gave me comfort and reason to do better next time. It is up to you on how to down yourself or on how to give courage on yourself. But for me, based on my experience- it is LOVE that heals. But there is a limit to everything. You have the control of yourself.